Letter from Feb 24th: Mission work

•March 25, 2010 • Leave a Comment

I’ve decided to try to keep this blog up too!  Now, I’m up to three blogs…

Compelled

Confession: I’m with the Big Guy

In Compelled, I just wrote about how I’ve wrestled with the call to Latin America to do mission work.  Within the past few months, God revealed that the timing wasn’t quite right, though.  Here’s one of the letters…

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Dear Poppy,

Wow!  There is so much that we have to talk about!  Before I begin, though, I would like to specify one thing: the whole purpose of this journaling session is to help me let go of certain things of my life right now.

The truth is that I’m really doubting whether or not I should go to Peru.  Honestly, it seems as though you’ve made my decision for me–staying and going to Italy with Campus Crusades.

I read Katie’s blog and listen to David Platt, but even without those, Lord, I feel you calling me to Latin America.  All that Katie talks about, being challenged to grow in her relationship with you through the cost of her mission work and the dedication of her life to you…

Lord, I want all of these because I’m tired of struggling with all the themes of society that prevent me from living for you.  I know that there will be many and even harder trials once I leave the States, but at least they will be beyond the conflicts of self-image, dating, school, etc…

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This is where the entry ended.  To read more about what was going on at the time, click here to read my post on Compelled.

Thanks for reading!  Praying your day is filled with Sonshine,

Sarah 🙂

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Dear Poppy

•February 21, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Dear Poppy,

This weekend has been absolutely beautiful!  The weather has been in the seventies with a gentle breeze and shining sun.  I wish it could stay like this forever.

Yesterday while I was running around campus, I just had to stop.  Everything around me was so beautiful, and all I wanted to do was soak up every ray of sunshine that filtered through the barren trees and warmed my winter skin.

What I realized in that moment of rest was that it is so easy for me to praise you in times like this: when everything in the world seems perfect and right, when all is as I believe it should be, and when the only thing that I have to worry about is absolutely nothing.

Instead of loving You with an overflowing heart on just these days, Poppy, I pray that You will teach me how to run to you especially when the weather is dreary.  After all, I can’t imagine a warmer or more comforting place to be than in Your loving arms!

Sorry, Poppy, that it has been so long since I last wrote, but I’m back to writing again. 🙂  You’ve brought me back to writing here.

I love you so much, and I’ll be looking for You even harder as the little taste of spring weather is traded back in for winter clouds.

With all of my warmest love,

Sissy

Dear Poppy:

•January 11, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Dear Poppy,

Yesterday afternoon, I watched the movie The Gospel of John with a friend of mind.  My heavenly Father, thank you so much for allowing me to see this movie!  Within the relatively short span of three hours, I followed along with the dialogue and read through the whole book of John.

Through actually watching the Gospel reenacted, Lord, I felt my love for Your Son, my Savior, grow even more.  As I watched the young woman wash Jesus’ feet with two bottles of perfume and her own hair, tears filled my eyes.

From watching this scene, I realized that this woman did not love Jesus because of His physical appearance or wealth and neither was she concerned about her own physical appearance.  Rather, she bowed at Jesus’ feet and washed away the dirt fromHis feet with her hair.  That woman loved Jesus from a wellspring of devotion and of complete belief.  She is the model for which I wish to grow even more in devotion to You and Your Son.

Thank you, Poppy!  I pray that I will live fully in this day with the joy and hope that I have in You!

In warmest love and devotion,

Sissy

Dear Sissy

•December 22, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Dear Sissy,

Did you know that it is impossible to get exhausted in doing My work?  This may sound quite ridiculous because you are wondering, How could I not become exhausted? Sissy, you will only become exhausted whenever you try to do My work in your own way.

In order to stay refreshed in doing My work, always come to Me in prayer.  I will give you the strength, the power, and the grace in order to complete your task, but, Sissy, you must come to Me.

Do you remember that one verse in Isaiah that is one of your mom’s favorites?  It is Isaiah 30:15, and it says, “In return and in rest, you shall be saved.  In quietness and in trust shall be your strength.”

Return to Me, Sissy.  Rest in My ever-living Presence.  Once you take a moment out of your work, even if it is for Me, I can help you regain your perspective.  Only by trusting Me will there ever be peace in the depths of your soul.

Remember Psalm 23:1-3.

“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters.

He restores my soul.

He leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.”

Come to Me, your Poppy, and I will restore your soul.  I love you, and I am so proud of you.  For the moment of our heavenly reunion, I am waiting.

Poppy

Dear Poppy:

•December 18, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Dear Poppy,

Yesterday, I was reading in one of my journals from September.  I came across this one entry, and I wanted to share it because it spoke of the beauty that You give your creation.

September 29,2009

the Lawn of Barnes and Noble

“Today is such a beautiful day!  I cannot fathom how any single person could look upon the beauty around them–this day filled with purpose and promise–and not see Your face shining upon them.

Life is beautiful.  Even the pains of loneliness, of grief, and of death, even these are beautiful for it is the human heart’s capacity to feel them that make these pains beautiful.

Of this, I am convinced.  It is not the beauty of the craft–the degree of its perfection, the enrapturing quality of its exterior–yet it is the sacrifice in the craftsmanship, the great love of the Maker, that makes all beautiful.  For in the creation of everything beautiful, there was a great sacrifice of great love.

I look at those around me.  We all come from different places, different backgrounds.  We speak different languages; we eat different foods.  We even go home to different places.  But throughout the course of everyday living, we are all unknowingly living a miracle.  We are the miracle.

It doesn’t matter whether or not we realize it, but this world is the workings of a purpose and a glory much greater than ourselves.  That purpose and that glory is You.”

Poppy, thank you for making me beautiful, not by my physical appearance, but by Your very presence dwelling within my soul, by Your gift of great love, and the sacrifice of Your Son.

Forever, I am loving you,

sissy

Examples of His Beauty in my life:

“Let the children come to me for to them belongs the Kingdom of Heaven” (Mt 19:14)

Ephesians 5:8, “Now you are light in the Lord.  Walk as children of the Light.”

Dear Sissy: Align Yourself to Me

•December 13, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Dear Sissy,

I know you are trying to sleep, but I must talk to you first.  I’m sorry for having interrupted your rest with a restless body and mind, but I can be impatient sometimes.  When I see the opportunity to talk to you, I snatch up the opportunity!

Whenever I give you task to complete, remember to look to Me for praise.  As you know, this fallen world can cut you down and beat you up, yet still expect you to finish at the top.  If you run in this Rat Race searching for praise, you will find yourself tired and wondering why you were racing in the first place.

On Earth, others don’t always see that it is I working within and benefiting from your tasks.  If I have called you, though, remember that this calling will succeed, regardless of what your peers believe, say, or do.  Therefore, align your heart, mind, body, and spirit to Me.  In this way, it is much easier to focus yourself completely on Me.

Remember to live in each day that I give you.  Don’t worry about tomorrow, because I am preparing you today for your life of tomorrow, the next day and even the next day.  It’s all about keeping perspective!

Sissy, stay with Me!  I will never lead you astray.  “Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you!”  Though you may not feel the assurance of My Presence just yet, remain faithful in waiting.  Once you are ready to receive My Spirit, all of your doubts will wash away, and you will be left with one conviction: I, the Lord your God, have great plans for you!

I love you, My Sweet Sissy.  Rest well with My angels surrounding your bed.

Poppy

Dear Poppy: thanks for the Bible

•December 10, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Dear Poppy,

Last night, I was flipping through the pages of my Bible.  I have been trying to read it all the way through, but I am only in Numbers.  No offense, God, but Leviticus was a desert to get through… haha no pun inteded ;).

Anyways, I wanted to tell you of a memory I have from Sunday School when I was in 6th grade.  Before that day, I can remember thinking of the Bible as this boring, huge, and dusty book that held words of ancient wisdom.  The Bible, I was sure, was a book that wasn’t meant to entertain, enthrall, or certainly not seduce.

My teacher asked us to yell out our favorite types of stories or movies.  Voices saying “bloodshed,” comedy,” romance,” and more floated in the air.  Then, my teacher changed my view of the Bible completely.  As she began to raise her Bible in the air, she told us, “This book, the Bible, is filled with any and every kind of story that you could ever want to read.  Do you want to read about war?  It’s all in the Old Testament!  What about a passionate romance?  Look no further than Song of Songs.  What about something strange?  Just as one example, there is a talking donkey in Numbers.”

After hearing this, it made you seem so much cooler!  It sounds silly and superficial, but seriously!  As a young sixth grader, I learned that You as my Father were not just some spirit that talked with “thou” and “thee” in every sentence.  

Thank you, Poppy, for teaching me so much of who You are through the Bible.  I pray that you will help me to appreciate every single word on those holy pages.

I love you! xoxoxox,

Sissy girl